having a human form having a human form what is this body for having to exist im torn whats the deal with existence man i know i am within gods hand but i feel the weight i feel the pain being a human feels super strange its hard to be myself in my body all i can do is just do my hobbies i dont want obligation i feel so naughty for not wanting to deal with this shit its obvi that i am not meant for this world im not normal im an alien girl i hate being bound like this i hate the tether something formless would suit me better i want 2 just breathe and live my life simply do what i gotta to be me its so confusing just to be!!! having a human form having a human form what is this body for having to exist im torn woke up today feeling gray and lazy my humanityz on my dome much lately fucked up over existing hazy dont wanna be here feel so crazy i know that humanity is purposeless i know they lie we gotta purchase shit i know that beauty lives without reason i just lay back and watch the seasons i cant deal with this shit right now i want to feel right but dont know how i just feel right when im with u! i just feel right when im with u... i want 2 just breathe and live my life simply do what i gotta to be me its so confusing just to be!!! having a human form having a human form what is this body for having to exist im torn

waking up in my daily life i find that i am filled with strife i struggle to do the shit i want i often fail and me it haunts that my life is like this it hurts to be like this why the fuck am i like this i just want some change everyday we got some shit we wanna do i know about we, we dont kno about u i guess that i gotta get my shit real tight just stand up tall and grab the fucking mic fucked up over what im going thru everyday we got some shit we gotta do waking up like everyday i wanna do some shit i gotta get some pay in my bedroom bouta go 2 work but this time truly it does not hurt see that funny make that money see that girl all sweet like honey not thinkin of u she thinking of loose up ya backpack straps sonny i dont wanna do this shit anymore i just wanna live life on the floor i dont wanna live life all poor i dont gotta i got something to work for we got the energy we got the drive we got the power we're starting 2 strive towards a better life living strong yeah we're in it, we're in it for the long could u ever feel like u could do something u thought u would never ever ever ever feeling light light like feather everyday we got some shit we wanna do i know about we, we dont kno about u i guess that i gotta get my shit real tight just stand up tall and grab the fucking mic fucked up over what im going thru everyday we got some shit we gotta do i am growing everyday growing in my favorite way feeling good not feeling grey not fucked up over shit i didnt say growing ever taller faster filling room with joyful laughter cleaning songs up with the master my meals arent bitter, a better platter loving feeling green and gravy the green makes me feel all wavy feeling stronger, not so lazy the news is good, better than maybe loving a boy got me all warm inside its not never that it makes me cry tears of joy tears of serenity the growth within it replenish me could u ever feel like u could do something u thought u would never ever ever ever feeling light light like feather everyday we got some shit we wanna do i know about we, we dont kno about u i guess that i gotta get my shit real tight just stand up tall and grab the fucking mic fucked up over what im going thru everyday we got some shit we gotta do everyday we got some shit we wanna do we know about we, we dont kno about u i guess that i gotta get my shit real tight just stand up tall and grab the fucking mic fucked up over what im going thru everyday we got some shit we gotta do

fuck ur shit thru the back to the mouth like change ur face dont fucking pout fuck ur bitch ass motherfucking doubt grab u by the collar and throw u the fuck out trash out the ass disaster in paris magnetic on the hoes u could call me ferris lifes too short we really gotta cherish got something on ur chest u gotta air ur so blind cuz u cant fucking see the way i am u dont kno me swag for days of pretty boy variety god on my side so dont test urself grab u put u up on the shelf stay up there and i mean it or fucking else ur lil bitch ass going to hell aint gotta lie trust i can tell pick up some black and milds for my own convenience dont talk like that you'll say you didnt mean it i know who i am i kno im a mean bitch one day the world will explode and ill fucking laugh got beats and rhymes for days out the fucking ass got an understanding of music like fucking math got enough knowledge to take u to fucking class got a beautiful sound that sounds like fucking trash garbage disposal the beauty inherent the life that we have i repeat we must cherish the things that we do and the things that we say go a long fucking way so just party all day and grab u some drugs and grab u some fun rock out all night til they show up with guns i cannot understate the beauty of life dont recoil from the ugly or cause urself strife

drug dog with the tussin cough syrup in her tummy acting so slimy scummy she aint got no money she forgives itself cuz she 20 looking like she so stupid but thats just how she do it she on at least 2 dry spells this mak es dog feel like it's in hell she blames a witch for being cursed if u ask about this her lips are pursed but she believes because it hurts mood swings in unexpected spurts but thats just how shes gotta live thats just how it fucking is she hates her time she hates her life she loves her friends she loves her wife she lives. with her parents. she hates it. shes embarassed. but shes got nothing if she aint got u and so she thanks u, tho ur few for now. so she says. u will grow. into more listeners she hopes she fucking cries and she mopes cuz the songs dont reach the masses but shes just sitting on her ass and she writes these fucking songs just to get trucking along with her life to understand that shes doing what she can and just get it out of her head so she doesnt end up dead but yeah. thats how it goes. sorry if its too on the nose. im just doing what i must and that is just- what's up!

something odd once happened that im sure is true the solution made me bitter i was surely blue i never knew what to think life felt like a game i acted up they tore me down and i never was the same i was once a skeleton now i am a dog i once loved a spectre i was witch of bog now things are so normal i dont know what to do! i cry and shout and beg and writhe and i laugh about it too these days they are different they are not so strange i miss the variety yes i miss the change i could hardly help it but that's just how it goes. i wish and hope and dream and pray but end up stuck and froze eventually therell be something something else i like change will come to me itll be just like a bike i will sit atop the seat b ill remember how it works ill have a jolly old merry time and nothing still will hurt fuck your shit u dont get where tf i come from my fat fucking tits got me feeling fresh and young my god my life is so inexplicable but thats just how it is fucked up everyday over shit that doesnt matter fucking hell its gay the way on the pavement the blood splatters i know now my way i know now whats right i know things are better i know things are tight i have a boyfriend with whom i will live with that that i worried about will be like a distant pile of shit ur god is weaker than mine just fucking with u lmao my ass off peace i seek but hardly find poetic on the beat to offset the dogshit god fucking loves me not just me but my music too something u could never see but how else would i be here if not for love

fuck it up fill my cup feel dire everytime feel desire for shine rituals inhabit me on the daily sleep eat talk good to prevent going crazy u dont kno. how i live. u rlly dont kno. what the fuck it is fuck. the beat up. for. the money. hope the rain subsides hope for the sunny brighter day bring peace of mind something hard to hold onto is what i find what i seek. is something good and free hate shame love pain seek fame fuck me but i cant forever after shut the door and stifle laughter u could not ever understand my world what it rlly is that i hold onto ok we do not exist for your pain we exist only for our pain we do not exist for your pain

crying cursing fucking hurting bitching moaning trying and going out of my way to get some shit done fucking tired of this shit, shit is not fun fucking up and fucking off and fucking around you fucking scoff repetitive tears like eggs for breakfast fuck it fear i have of next it's apprehensive future's fallacy of past not yet forgotten it's like trying to not exist while fucking feeling so begotten it's like nothing you've ever seen but not like you havent its like so fucking mean it's a habit fuck it i try it fuck it i bite it it bites hold not tight i lose hold grip i lost it fuck it toss this shit into the bin yo miss the rim wo-woah fuck you try me my chains tight it's gnarly fuck you you bite me my boyfriend he barbie then why the fuck i feel like shit you know whats good cuz it's not this.. what? fuck it feel it try it steal it bite me i bite you fuck with me i laugh at you crying cuz the worlds mean saddest shit ive ever seen lying laughing cuz the end of days crying bout the way the world weighs trying not to do this shit again trying just to drop the fucking pen trying just to drop the fucking pen my boy he looks like a girl your girl she look like a girl my world it look like underworld this world it feel like underworld hell and demons after me i pretend like i dont see they go away i laugh and play off to live another day

fuck your shit you dont get it u dont understand just step off bitch get the fuck out my face bitch fuck your shti you dont get it grab my bf by his cute girl tit needa get drunk and get on a plane fuck u and fuck the pain everyday i try and do some shit for my head everyday it can be tough just to get out of bed everyday i got a brand new addiction everyday is a new battle with my afflictions everyday is a struggle to find peace of mind everyday is valuable is what i find everyday i repeat shit the way it feels like me everyday i repeat shit the way i want to be jump on the bed. yell in the house pretend to be scared. pretend to be mouse defend the fair. lend to the wanting contend with the err. intend to be haunting digress on the beat like it said some shit i dont like only reason i produce i like to pick up the mic fuck you if you hate me cmon lets start a fight what u scared cuz u kno im crazy cuz i bite i just sitting here waiting for the i get out of bed and shake out the i walk up to you and ask you for people walk up t o me ask me for at the party talking about all the i lied i dont party i just i lied i party i just dont i love to feel the music the way it make me [unwritten] here we are at the end of the song if u want u could play it back and maybe sing along if u want u could take my hand and we could go somewhere else anywhere with you is unlike without you, with you is not hell despite my verbosity and keenness to lie i sometimes sit dumb and just watch the sky i hope for the fog, pray for the sun to bring us warmth without pain, dim the glum i hope for strength anew to bloom i pray for strength of explosion like boom i want to make waves like an earthquake i want to be who people name not to sound fake